My mom is the person I’m most grateful for and the one I appreciate the most in my world (dad is too but mom slightly more).
I’m not the best person when it comes to expressing her emotions, even now I made sure that she’s kms away from me (she’s attending a conference in Qatar) to write this post so that she doesn’t see me bawling my eyes writing this (currently happening ) because I grew up not used to opening up about my feelings and as a result I’m described as “cold as a piece of wood” in home, which doesn’t help my case in the slightest… so I’ll try my best word to word this correctly
In all honesty I haven’t been the best daughter growing up, struggling with mental health and not getting properly diagnosed till later in life, so I wasn’t the best person to be around, lazy, cold, uncooperative and much more.. As much as I tried to help and be there for her, it was never enough, and things only got worse after I joined med school(which seems to be one of the worst decisions I’ve made in my life) because now neither am I a good daughter nor a good student like a used to be, so I’m always feeling sorry for my mom because I can’t even compensate her in any way or form for how much she sacrificed for me which doubles my guilt, even worse I can’t even tell her how much I appreciate her being in my life because I just can’t get the words out of my mouth or even how to phrase them.
This is one of the few chances where I’m able to express my emotions so I’m taking it (also mom will never be able to read this which is a plus XD), I love my mom to the moon, she’s my hero, my role model and one of the pillars of my life, I know she’s not the best mother nor is she getting the best parenting award by any chance yet she’s still my mom and I will still choose her to be my mother in every lifetime I get and I pray for her health and longer years in life because I wouldn’t know what to do without her (just simply bury me with her the day she goes XD)
So mom… I adore you even if I’ve never said it
Here’s probably the only kit that can represent what I’m feeling writing this..
Also here’s me and mom and what I originally wanted to participate with tbh this was 3 years ago and one of the few pictures that I got with her (please tell me I look like her I love when people say that to me)
Thank you for this beautiful story and you guys are definitely peas in a pod!
I completely understand how you feel as I was in a way never raised to express my full emotions and like you I find it so much easier to just write instead. But I am very sure your mum knows how much you love her just like the way she loves you.
Thank you for sharing this beautiful story and the feelings you’ve kept close to your heart.
She is the best mom in your world, and to her, you are the best daughter.
Robotime Community is a loving and caring place — you can always relax here and speak your heart freely.
Thank you @valleyggoo for sharing what must have been difficult. Hoping that writing these words down gave you some peace. I am glad you joined this community and that you find joy within. I agree with the others, you are ayounger version of mom.
I’m glad I have her too!! also thank you, since english isn’t my 1st language I always tend to make mistakes or sometimes I spell the words in my mind but forget to write them so hearing that there isn’t much faults is reassuring <<3
“peas in a pod” I’m definitely stealing this thank you very much XD, and yup not being able to express your emotions is not for the weakest but hopefully we’ll get better at it!
Thank you for saying this robotime!! it means a lot also I actually joined back in august I’m just not that active (hopefully that will change soon ) <<33
Healing and helps to lift a burden!
As for spelling, I speak English as my first and pretty much only language. I know several on hear make errors me included. I would not think to correct because we are from all over and it is about the craft not the grammar and punctuation. I think you are just fine!
Hahah I learn as I go! Well English isn’t necessarily my first language either so there’s so many words I steal as well.
I’m definitely learning about this whole emotion thing and it’s definitely raw. I wish I’m able to express my feelings as freely as I can here on this community. It’s a work in progress for us.
Welcome I think you should let your mom read this. Sometimes it’s easier to put your feelings on paper than to say them to someone. I think your mom will really appreciate it!
We’ll figure it out eventually, I’m still at the stage of me cringing at myself whenever I feel Emotional but still a progress compared to before so a win is a win, hopefully the next year we’ll get even better at this both you and me
) because I grew up not used to opening up about my feelings and as a result I’m described as “cold as a piece of wood” in home, which doesn’t help my case in the slightest… so I’ll try my best word to word this correctly
and sorry for the long paragraphs 
so you are doing amazing! 
I think you should let your mom read this. Sometimes it’s easier to put your feelings on paper than to say them to someone. I think your mom will really appreciate it!